Week 96: Scheduled and Rescheduled

Much of my time this week was spent scheduling meetings and workshops and rescheduling. By the middle of the week this became more frustrating than I could take. It’s a small thing but in the moment it felt like the end of the world. I have four months left in my service and at this point I believe that I will be unable to see some of the projects I have been working on to the end. In the moment this was simultaneously devastating and yet I also felt apathetic, which scared me more. Every time I was told a meeting was canceled I lost a little bit of faith. Ultimately I do think there is value that I went to the social workers office every week and tried to talk about Gender. Although I have yet to see these conversations converted into an event for the community. I know that at least on some level the conversation is being had. Although the workshop on Emotional Intelligence is going on its third reschedule and I believe this one is indefinite, I am grateful for the opportunity to have put that workshop together and maybe the next volunteer at my site will get to put the workshop on. No doubt this will happen moments after they arrive and lead to a comical story for that volunteer for years to come. I’m lucky to understand that my service is so much more than these canceled meetings and rescheduled programs. I always knew that I was going to take more than I could give and this week was a prime example. This experience has allowed me to grow in ways I could not have imagined and for that I am grateful. These discomforts and frustrations are simply growing pains, they are just part of the process.